I feel on top of the world today. I’m back to 184 - my lowest weight. Yesterday I avoided temptation. We had a potluck at work and of course there was chips and dips, pizza, cakes, cookies, etc etc. Did not eat one bite. Instead I picked up a Fage that I brought with me the day before.
Personal training yesterday was tough. I have weak triceps, and I absolutely HATE tricep dips. Then we did some other shit until “muscle failure” which means until I couldn’t do any more. My arms are letting me know today of the beating I gave them yesterday.
I picked up the cream for the allergic reaction on my face, and it looks like 30% better with just one application WOOO HOOO! I’ve felt so weird this week without my makeup on. My boss said that she couldn’t stop staring at my rash uni-brow, and my boyfriend said I looked like Frida. That’s attractive, right?
Speaking of my boyfriend, things have been really great this whole week. Feels nice.
What type of cardio workouts do you do? I am also a lapbander and I have had my band for about 2 months now. I still feel like I am overeating, though it is not nearly as much as I used to eat. I also am having a hard time losing weight now. I can maintain my ass off, but I havent lost anything else since my initial 24 pound loss after the surgery, and that is with cardio 5 days a week at least 30 minutes. I am in a slump, and I need your help. lol You and your journey inspire me so much.
I do interval training and attend boot camp once a week. I work out 4-5 times a week for an hour, but to be honest, if I’m not with my trainer my workout will drag. I personally like some bodyrock.tv and if I’m up for a beating I pop in an Insanity DVD. Working out is not even half the battle. I would say it is about 30% My first 80 lbs were lost with diligent calorie counting, and NO exercise (I had double foot surgery 3 weeks after lap band). I KNOW that it sucks because I’m struggling with it myself, and have found myself in the range of the 180s for nearly two months.
Maintaining is something I always feared going into this, but its so easy! That’s the upside, right?
So, my advice to you is to count your calories tomorrow. Then examine it - are you getting enough protein in? A minimum of 50-60 gms. ALWAYS THINK PROTEIN FIRST. How many calories are you consuming? Is there any way you can cut some out, but remain over 700-800 cals?
Weigh your food 1/2 c to 1 c
Drink at least 8 oz of water
Speaking of water, this one is kinda debated, but I follow it: Do not drink 15-30 minutes prior to eating or 30 min-1 hour after your meal.
I know you did not go through surgery to only lose 24 pounds. KEEP GOING!
I left the bathroom, and I know she heard me crying. So she was staring at me intently. Maybe she wants me to go to her, but I can’t. I’m not capable of showing my weak side to ANYONE. the other day my brother asked me if I was capable of crying tears and to that I said, ”No, bitch. I boss too hard to cry” lolololololol hey, I can still laugh in between my anguish, right?
Anyway, my mom surprised me with a text saying, ”I know you love him, FIGHT FOR HIM, don’t give up” my mom generally hates my boyfriends…she’s hated them all.
I was slightly bit annoyed when I clicked on a link to a Today show interview involving a teen that had bariatric surgery. I was intrigued and decided to watch. I was was thinking to myself, OHHH YEAAHHHH WLS on TV!! Until they interviewed the teen.
The interviewer asked what are your eating habits like now post surgery, and she said that she can eat 2 pieces of pizza opposed to the whole pie, and that surgery was easy.
What that just told America is that if you’re fat, you will get surgery and its an easy fix, and that learning new eating habits are not necessary. Boom weight is gone…No, No, NO MF’n BOOM! And this is why people look down upon weight loss surgery.
I’m in my bed wishing I was not. Last night, I planned out a night that I was so excited about. I wanted to spend alone time with him that we desperately need. It didn’t happen. I cried on my long drive home, and I cried myself to sleep again. I don’t know what to do. So, crying is my only solution.
This is the first relationship I’ve had that I don’t speak to my friends about. Mostly because with my wisdom (cough old age cough), I now know that other people’s opinions can negatively affect both the relationship with your friend and your boyfriend.
But at this very moment I just wish a friend would comfort me.
Emotionally I’m back to 2007, I don’t want to be her again.
I planned to workout my circuit workouts, and insanity tonight. First half of the afternoon my brother was hogging the TV/living room - the only space I can workout in. My room doesn’t even have space for a matchbox. and now the stupid Mexico vs El Salvador game is on and my dad hasn’t gone to damn bed. WTF!
My food addiction is larger than my mind can handle. I just stuff things in my mouth without even thinking, and it makes me so angry!!!
Friday I was at my lowest weight is 186.9. The VERY NEXT DAY, I was at 190.8. NO JOKE.
So, come Monday I was 189.8, today 189.3, and I’m so irritable. I am angry with myself for always doing the same exact thing, over and over again. I’m supposed to lose a steady 1.5 per week. Thursday is my weigh in day, and I HIGHLY doubt that I will weigh 185.6. HA!
So easy to gain, so hard to lose.
I’m an idiot who busted her ass to lose weight and gained it all back in a day.
So, everything and everyone has just about annoyed me. Yes, I am taking my frustrations out on others, but fuck…I just don’t know how to deal. I should be in the 170s by now, and I’m no where near it.